Luke LTD.

Luke doesn't know what he wants. Or how to get there. Luke is miserable right now. But it is time to live for himself.

this was the best summer I've ever had.

Wierd. It hit me sooooooo fast! All summer I've been looking forward to university. (actually for long before that....for most of grade 12). Yet now its facing me right now, and I'm longing for the days merely months ago where we could have our homework checked in English. I really regret not appreciating high school more. I mean sure, a lot of it is truly bad, but I still could have spent more time to appreciate the good. I am also overwhelmed by how many people are moving. In addition to the one or two that I had been bracing myself for, there are so many people who I will subconsciously miss.....I know it. I am writing this right now simply because I know in two weeks I think I was being silly for longing for high school, but I will say right now (and I mean right this minute, not in ten or twenty, but right now) I wish I was going into grade 12. I am very nostalgic for I feel right now, that come Wednesday, my legacy (or to sound less dramatic, the majority of my life) will change. Completely. In many ways grade 1 is closer to grade 12 than grade 12 is to university. I don't like absolutes - hence my frustration with math and science. I like to keep things open. I always have, and always will. It is now that I hate how I am shutting a book. The book which has made up most of my life. (holy sentence fragment). I know I'll be ok, but for someone as emotional as me, it is really difficult to endure all of this.

for various reasons (mostly to due with my current level of coherentness) I will just say as many things that randomly come to me:

- i am a jealous person
- i wish jeff hadn't fucking said that
- i like peanut butter out of the jar
- is peanut butter always in plastic tubs
-m.a.s.h. is a show i never got into
- grade 6 was incredbily poetic
- my conversation with garrett under our tree was one of the best things thats ever happened to me.
- blah..
- i like windows vista
- is something random if you pull it out of the air?
- its interesting how people are
-sandspit is either incredibly busy or not at all..
- it was fun
- tonight was fun, 
- i think?
-thank you rwaaaaaaaaaaaob
- what is phosphorus anyway
-this i swear by.....the staaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaars!
- hi brittany
- i stand by my relatively short answer earlier, though i do like her. most of the time.
- do i though
-knowing things would be sweet, even if it would interfere with the, while hectic, joyous dayss of our youth
-are they really joyous or are we forced into thinking it. or dow e  force ourselves to think that they arent joyous when in reality theyr eally are?
- what i said to garrett was profound at the time, "while i thought to myself at the time, "this is the beginning of happiness, when in reality i was wrong. it wasn't the beginning of happiness, it was happiness." "  this is so true. to know something is happy, it must be completely organic, and therefore removed from conscious analysis. to realize something was truly happy occurs only in retrospect, whereas the instances where you say to yourself that you are happy, are ones where you aren't because you are too occupied with telling yourself that you are happy. happiness is different from having a good time. ive had a good time now for a while...specifically the past few weeks, but i realized earlier that i havent been happy in a while, because while i was under that tree i  was happy, and it felt different and good. i havent felt happy in a while.
-it felt REALLY good to say that
- i didnt know it until i started writing
- i hate when you used to get sent to your room, and my mom would tell me to write out everything.
- actually i loved it
- i am a sentimental person
- this probably isnt endearing myself to anyone right now, but i dont care at all
- songs speak to me
- i love piano
- i like the voiceover voice on tv tropolis
- i hope no one thinks that this is a cultivated "faux-emo" list
- id love to
- sort of
-is that confusing?
- free
- live free or die hard?
- i havent been to new hampshire in a while
-  oh stop it mother you'll give yourself a nosebleed
- i like being happy. im a happy person.
- i love adults
- i find it fascinating how some people ( not naming names) can be so youth oriented. his ignorance is displayed through this narrow-minded dislike of spending time with elders
- i love garretts comment about robbie
-mmmmbissed
-true
- lucky0
-jimmy gallant from wilmont valley
- hollywood
-i like the song "hollywood" by madonna
- i hate having to delete all the annoying things that you mistype
- yawning makes me reallize how stupid this list is
- is it  cool
- am i cool
-whill i make it
-will i do it
- will i sing some corny "canadian-techno song"
-no?
- why no?
- is no ok? would it hurt?
- what happened to life?
- that sounds like some character song early on in the first act of an elton john musical.
-mmbiisised
-come with me 24601
-i wish i coulkd control time
- to have one day. just one day. would you use it wisely
- or would you squander it like homer simpson and end up calling barney gumball.....
- i would squander it
- i knew i couldnt
- secretly
- hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
- thatnk you rwaaaaobbb
-jeffs comment really did make me mad. big time.
-wow it did.
- tidying is a chore best left to when guilt is in the air
- like then.
-not now, although their is some guilt lying overhead like storm clouds rolling in
- ok easy there  narration from nicole kidman-starring prestige pic trailer
- wheat is a surprisingly attractive
- how does one describe a finish on a pian
-piano
- why did megan stewart stop piano
- or glynis
- i love jacqueline
- ever  wonder what if
- fun game you shoudl try it sometime
- i hate when you knwo but you dont let yourself fully comprehend because youre so fucking stubborn.
-poor fantine, its sad how she died
- when a family member dies, really is sad
- wow, wierd.
- but not really. it is true
- soberness breeds shadows in behavior
- i am honest right now
- even for good as sung by kristin chenoweth and idina menzel
- i spelt those right
-caro mio ben
- im not in the mood
-i am done.
-poor miniature schnauzers
- wayne was right
- screw making sense
- night.

There she weaves by night and day
A magic web with colours gay.
She has heard a whisper say,
A curse is on her if she stay
To look down to Camelot.
She knows not what the curse may be,
And so she weaveth steadily,
And little other care hath she,
The Lady of Shalott. 


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But in her web she still delights
To weave the mirror's magic sights,
For often through the silent nights
A funeral, with plumes and lights
And music, went to Camelot;
Or when the Moon was overhead,
Came two young lovers lately wed.
"I am half sick of shadows," said
The Lady of Shalott.

IM DONE OF PUBLIC SCHOOL FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE

OH GOD!

COMING HOME TO AN ODDLY QUIET HOUSE CALLING OUT, "HELLO?"

TO HEAR "HI" FROM BOTH OF YOUR PARENTS CALLING OUT FROM THEIR ROOM...AND YOUR MOM SAYING "JUST GIMMEE A SECOND LUKE"


KILL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

as yet another example of my crazy mood swings lately....I'm really looking forward to next year. I'm looking forward to an elevated level of maturity, in my courses, in myself, and in others. It's gonna be pretty cool.

What a time in our lives. I know this is uber cliched to be writing a reflection post at this time in my high school career, but screw it.

It's amazing this time. It really is. It is spontaneously incredible and unbearable. Awful and wonderful. Happy and sad. (Hmmm...not too bad with the synonyms!)

Having said all that. A part of me right now wants to say that I can't wait for this year to be over and to get away from this fucking school. The other part of me is very annoyed with that part because it is telling it that because, being the ever-emotional Luke Thompson, I will become saddened with leaving the school and childhood behind. I wish I could feel one way or the other. So many immature people around. So many great people around. Rghhh.....why are there no absolutes??

Meh......I'm just being a typical emotional teenager right now, and the reason I'm annoyed with school is emotional teenagers. Interestingly enough, the reason I will miss school is emotional teenagers.


Finally....just a note. Whether or not you support the war on terror, I think it is appropriate to take a moment for a special thought for our troops overseas, and wish them well and that they return home safely.

this is not a complaint.

but I love how it feels when you make a seemingly minor decision that makes you feel way better than you have in a while. I just love being reminded to do other things.

and feeling proud that you can see what others can't.